You know that saying, “When life throws you lemons, you make lemonade?” Recently, I felt like I’d had a bucket of lemons thrown at me and this time I did’t want to be Positive Patty about my situation. It wasn’t working overtime 3 weekends in a row in April that killed me. It wasn’t even the fact that my husband traveled 3 out of 4 weeks in May that set me over the edge.
I survived the 1st grade field trip to the Puppetry Arts Center; kudos to the teachers that take care of my kids every day. I met with both of my kids’ teachers to hear about their progress this year and helped plan the 1st grade end of the year party. I attended the pre-k party and two awards ceremonies. Plus I toted my kids to swim practice for an hour and 45 minutes after school every day the last two weeks of school. Then I even made dinner, put them to bed, did the dishes and laundry. All the while by myself as my husband was out of town. When life hands you lemons, sometimes you can keep on going and make the lemonade.
The first day of summer break started with my kids waking up at 5 a.m. and fighting non-stop.
I soon started to question my decision to go back to being a stay-at-home mom for the summer. Then we spent the entire weekend at the pool. We got to catch up with friends and get some natural vitamin D. My son and I both were even doing back dives off the diving board. Things were looking up.
The next day was the first “official day of Summer” (the day after Memorial Day) and my 4 year old broke his arm jumping on the bed. Because of the severity of the break, he couldn’t get a waterproof cast. So my dreams of spending the summer at the pool with my friends went out the window faster than I can say, “Yay Summer, ” (insert eye roll).
Don’t get me wrong, I know it could be worse. I know I should be grateful this didn’t happen during the last week of school madness. I should be grateful it didn’t happen when my hubby was out of town. And that even though his arm is broken in two places and the bone was bent, at least the bones were still intact. At least he still has one good arm, and he didn’t have to have surgery to put pins in, but it still sucks!
And I’m giving myself permission right now to have a little pity party that life has thrown me a bucket of lemons and to be mad about our current situation.
Tomorrow I will put my happy face back on for my boy and tell him it’s going to be ok. I’ll find something fun for us to do that doesn’t involve water or being outside in the heat. Something that doesn’t involve running, climbing or jumping. I’ll give him an extra hug and tell him how much I love him. That I’m here to help him navigate the challenges of playing legos, going potty, and eating ice cream with his left hand.
I’m also going to give myself grace to be ok with a little extra tech time this summer. The grace to be a little jealous when everyone’s social media feed is covered in pool photos and we have to miss all the neighborhood pool parties. Sometimes, when life throws you lemons, it’s ok to throw them out with the trash. You don’t always have to make lemonade.
I’m not in control.
Part of me thinks maybe God just wanted to remind me that he’s in control and I am not. I think I jinxed myself when I had a little mommy meltdown on that first Friday school was out. I had a “come to Jesus” meeting with my kids about how they were going to treat each other. We discussed that they were going to have to earn tech time with good behavior and doing school work. Then 5 minutes later they were hitting each other, and I screamed, “I feel like I have no control!”
Yep, that’s what I get for trying to control my kids and make them sit quietly in the car. The reality is that kids will be kids and all I can do is try to do the best I can. Although this summer may not be what I had pictured in my mind, it will be ok. I’ll make the best of it. The cast is only temporary and this too shall pass. Plus, luckily I have my village of moms to help me get through it.